seeking silence from the spirit spitting words

wishing for stillness in the summer heat

to feel complete- completely in the quiet

ive been pushing away all the important thoughts

tangled in

misread opening statements

ive quit interpretting body language

because what we do is not what we feel

everyones storys so overwhelming 

insecurities run wild in a moment

back beats carry me from one unhappy thought

to the next 

without an ending

ive been chasing serenity

seducing silence

unsuccessfully.